in english this time

Daylight waits, comes, wanes, and leaves (Makata vol. 4, issue 9, sept. 2003)

Daylight waits

I shiver by the gates

The first sight of morning

Has caught me in mourning

Grief surrounds me

Engulfs me

Me

Daylight comes

I lost sight of kingdoms

The sunlight spreads its wings

I was left by the kings

Light surrounds me

Blinds me

Me

Daylight wanes

I feel I'm going insane

Darkness still awaits its time

I hear its distant rhyme

Trouble surrounds me

Scares me

Me

Daylight leaves

I am left in heaves

No more trace of daylight

I am left alone tonight

Evil surrounds me

Corrupts me

Me

Daylight I wait,

Please come

Don't wane

Never leave me

Me

I used to write poems…let's reword that: I used to write poems whenever I can…does that make me a poet?

This is my first ever English entry on this blog…what about it? nothing special really…i just wanted to say that for emphasis.

Sometimes life is italicized to give an impression of importance…more often, life is romanized. just simple in all its forms. I admire ee cummings for his simple yet very meaningful poems. I was introduced to him in my Hum II class, where I got a grade of 4.0 for crying out loud! anyways, simple as it may seem, living life is a bucket full of complexities…there are treacheries everywhere…hiding in the shadows of our past trying to come and get you anytime. I'm not saying i have a hideous past…again, i said that to be melodramatic.

Life enjoys melodramas! Full to the brim sometimes. That's why a pack of tissue is necessary to enter the journey called life….you'll never know when a tear will drop…or for my case, when the next attack of rhinitis will come…hehehehe…

My life used to revolve around cartoons (it still does sometimes), sneaking out to play in the sun while my mom sleeps, checking out the latest showbiz chika, and wallowing in the life called college. Now, my life revolves around many complicated trivial things…i don't know when for sure this is all gonna end. but i am sure trying to enjoy every bit of it…no sense trying to get somewhere without enjoying the trip. it's a matter of looking on a different perspective..trying to find the sides of a circle (yes, circles do have sides you know) instead of going around it. Letting yourself be one with the rest, and not isolating yourself from everyone. Checking out if one star failed to twinkle instead of cursing the dimness of the night. Trying to uncomplicate and bring things down to the basics helps a lot…it clears your mind, opens up your soul, and lets you breathe fine.

nobody is a loser in life. we just have to find our own little victories and stop worrying about the future. It's not yet here. live in the present. don't forget the past (it's a sin), but don't let it bother your now. being a fulfilled person takes a lot of everything. be a gentle fighter for yourself!

ano ang meron sa edad?

The first time I loved forever, was when you whispered my name…

nyewerps!

walang kinalaman sa one liner na yun ang isusulat ko…nagkataon lang na yun ang iniisip kong kanta sa mga sandaling ito…ganda e…

nga pala kadadaan lang ng bagyo…madami na naman ang nasalanta…kunsabagay araw araw naman may mga maliliit na bagyo sa buhay natin…tayo na nga lang ang bahala kung tayo ay magdedeclare ng state of calamity o pipilitin natin bumangon sa sarili nating mga paa…hindi na importante na binaha tayo ng problema o kinidlatan ng kamalasan….ang importante naman ay yung pagdating ng bahaghari sa dulo ng unos. malalim ata yun! hehehehe…ganyan nga siguro pag nagkakaedad na…dati kuntento na akong isipin kung saan kami mag-lulunch ng mga kaibigan ko: Mang Jimmy's ba (bilang muna kung sapat ang pera), sa Matchstick (chef!), CASAA (freshman!), o sa Chocolate Kiss (doble ang bilang kung me pera kasi SOSYAL!). ngayon samutsari na ang kahulugan ng mga bagay bagay sa akin…ang berdeng dahon may iba ng ibig sabihin…ang ngitin ng pusa iba na rin…maski ang huni ng ibon! Ay! Parang psycho ata ako nun!

walang halong biro…ang pagkakaroon ng iba't ibang karanasan habang ang edad ko ay lumalapit na sa dulo ng kalendaryo (mga 6 taon pa) ay nakakapagpaiba ng pananaw ko sa buhay…hindi ko naman sinasabing ako ay unti unti nang lumalapit sa borderline ng pagiging normal…malayo pa rin ako…nasa abnormal side pa rin naman ako…basta…iba na talaga…mas matured ika nga…hehehehe…pero sabi ni Atan di pa rin daw nadadagdagan ng 1 taon ang pag-iisip ko…hmmm…baka mas mauna pa magmature si Scout sa akin.

kung ano pa man, sana maexplore ko ng mabuti pa ang mga nakapaligid sa akin…wag na muna ang langit at lupa…yung mga kasama ko sa pagitan ng dalwang yun muna…saka na ang nasa ibabaw at ilalim…may panahon para dun…

TAMA!

…and I knew at once, you loved me…for the me of who I am