on disappointments

i am the type of person who take disappointments to a serious level. makes me cry really…when things don't turn out exactly as planned, or at least as expected, i feel so cheated. maybe that's not the exact feeling, but i can't define it more than with the use of that word.

anyhow, i hate being put in a situation that makes me disappointed in the end. i need not want to be mad at anyone, less feel bad at someone, but i just can't help it. the two likely victims to this kind of disposition are Dad and Athan. I guess i expect too much and put too much trust on a possibility of something promised or planned. (sigh). it's like a broken record really…it just goes about repeating itself…no matter how hard i try to undo the expectations so as to avoid being hurt, i simply can't do it. very hard for me you might say.

i guess it dwells on the thought that disappointing someone is like committing sin to that person. i don't know why i think that way. i just don't think it's right to, you know (i am repeating myself here), just disillusion someone. not a good thing to do to me. i know it's pretty lame. so the hell with all the lame excuses in the world; i am not the only one here anyway.

i am just venting out air…hay!

P.D.A. (We just don’t care) by John Legend

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't care.

You know I love you when you're loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
I'm not ashamed, I don't care who sees
Us hugging & kissing our love exhibition all

We'll rendezvous out on the fire escape
I'd like to set off an alarm today
The love emergency don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
I urgently need you

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us
Let's get lost in lust
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't care.

I see you closing down the restaurant
Let's sneak and do it when your boss is gone
Everybody's leaving we'll have some fun
Or maybe it's wrong but you're turning on.
Ooh, we'll take a visit to your Mama's house
Creep to the bedroom while your Mama's out
Maybe she will hear it when we scream and shout
And we'll keep it rocking until she comes knocking

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't…

Let's make love,
Let's go somewhere they might discover us.
Let's get lost in lust
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't care.

If we keep up on this fooling around
We'll be the talk of the town
I'll tell the world I'm in love any time
Let's open up the blinds 'cause we really don't mind

Ooh I don't care about the priority
Let's break the rules and ignore society
Maybe our neighbor like to spy, it's true
So what if they watch when we do what we do

Oh, let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't…

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us…

I just like the rhythm of this song…makes driving a lot smoother and swabe!

it’s nice to be back!

i have been gone for a while…with all the activities going around me, staying put in i.ph has somehow been pretty impossible. there were a lot of things to do…to think about…to put in their proper perspectives (not mine, unfortunately), etc.

anyways, i am back! happy as it may be for me, i am facing the dark zone…BLANK! alas! i have nothing to write…the muses have escpaed me, i guess.

sigh…

i have nothing to write…

still, i'm glad i'm back  

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