in english this time

Daylight waits, comes, wanes, and leaves (Makata vol. 4, issue 9, sept. 2003)

Daylight waits

I shiver by the gates

The first sight of morning

Has caught me in mourning

Grief surrounds me

Engulfs me

Me

Daylight comes

I lost sight of kingdoms

The sunlight spreads its wings

I was left by the kings

Light surrounds me

Blinds me

Me

Daylight wanes

I feel I'm going insane

Darkness still awaits its time

I hear its distant rhyme

Trouble surrounds me

Scares me

Me

Daylight leaves

I am left in heaves

No more trace of daylight

I am left alone tonight

Evil surrounds me

Corrupts me

Me

Daylight I wait,

Please come

Don't wane

Never leave me

Me

I used to write poems…let's reword that: I used to write poems whenever I can…does that make me a poet?

This is my first ever English entry on this blog…what about it? nothing special really…i just wanted to say that for emphasis.

Sometimes life is italicized to give an impression of importance…more often, life is romanized. just simple in all its forms. I admire ee cummings for his simple yet very meaningful poems. I was introduced to him in my Hum II class, where I got a grade of 4.0 for crying out loud! anyways, simple as it may seem, living life is a bucket full of complexities…there are treacheries everywhere…hiding in the shadows of our past trying to come and get you anytime. I'm not saying i have a hideous past…again, i said that to be melodramatic.

Life enjoys melodramas! Full to the brim sometimes. That's why a pack of tissue is necessary to enter the journey called life….you'll never know when a tear will drop…or for my case, when the next attack of rhinitis will come…hehehehe…

My life used to revolve around cartoons (it still does sometimes), sneaking out to play in the sun while my mom sleeps, checking out the latest showbiz chika, and wallowing in the life called college. Now, my life revolves around many complicated trivial things…i don't know when for sure this is all gonna end. but i am sure trying to enjoy every bit of it…no sense trying to get somewhere without enjoying the trip. it's a matter of looking on a different perspective..trying to find the sides of a circle (yes, circles do have sides you know) instead of going around it. Letting yourself be one with the rest, and not isolating yourself from everyone. Checking out if one star failed to twinkle instead of cursing the dimness of the night. Trying to uncomplicate and bring things down to the basics helps a lot…it clears your mind, opens up your soul, and lets you breathe fine.

nobody is a loser in life. we just have to find our own little victories and stop worrying about the future. It's not yet here. live in the present. don't forget the past (it's a sin), but don't let it bother your now. being a fulfilled person takes a lot of everything. be a gentle fighter for yourself!

Kahapon

parang ganun lang kadali

ng ako ay tumalikod

sa kahapong di na dapat balikan

kahit ano aking gawin

yun ay kahapon na

nilipasan ng panahon

tapos na.

ngunit kung babalikan

masaya pa ba?

dapat pa ba?

iba na ang mundong aking ginagalawan ngayon

ganun din sya

kaya dapat bigyan ng tuldok.

tuldok.

kahapon, ngayon iba na.

nakakahon na mga alaala…

nakatikom na damdamin…

tapos na.

kahapon pa.